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Thursday, August 30, 2012


I tend to fall over dead after I'm done with the last ab exercise in Ripped, and just lay there for several minutes watching Jillian and the girls do their cooldown stretches. My favorite part of any yoga workout is the last couple minutes where you lay down with your eyes closed and just relax, so I always end up doing a variation of that after Jillian beats me to death. Once I feel better, I get up and stretch on my own.

Anyway, this morning I'm laying there and I noticed something spectacular. Daylight! Between my thighs! I can't remember the last time I had any sort of space between my thighs. This made my day. Thanks for the beatings, Jillian!

Yesterday was Picture Day at my kids' school. I didn't think to get a picture of Abby in the morning, but did manage to snap a couple of my twins before we left that afternoon. Aren't they adorable? Cora's on the left, and Emma's on the right. Yes, they are very much fraternal!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Head Games

So I never did run yesterday. It was the first time in 3 weeks that I didn't run according to plan. I ended up stuffing my face yesterday too. I don't know what was going on, but I just felt defeated. In a funk. And I let it get the best of me. My head was full of negative self thoughts, and food seemed to be the answer. I didn't have a huge binge day, but I definitely ate stuff I shouldn't have. A big bowl of Frosted Flakes, a handful of Sour Punch Straws, McD's cheeseburger and the rest of the kids' chicken mcnuggets (4 of them)... I ate all day before thinking.

BUT! Looking back at yesterday, I did let some positive thoughts whisper to me even though I didn't hear her much.

**Cora had gymnastics right before school started, so we went to McD's to grab lunch on the way to school. Instead of getting my usual Big Mac combo (super-sized) or 2 cheeseburgers combo, I just got 1 cheeseburger. No fries, no soda. I did eat some of the girls' fries, but not many, and I ended up eating their remaining 4 nuggets, but it could've been much worse.

**After dropping the girls off at preschool, I met a friend for a little shopping at Sephora and then I went with her to Panera Bread. Since I'd already had McDonald's, I stuck to water. I was SO TEMPTED to eat another lunch since my McD's wasn't completely filling, but I knew I'd feel stuffed and sick and gross if I did order something. But mostly, I'd already spent more than I'd planned at Sephora, so I felt guilty buying more food when I'd already gone to McD's.

**When I bought the sour punch straws, I also bought a Snickers bar, but I didn't eat it, and I threw away the rest of the straw package away after I ate 4 or 5 of them.

**I went to Great Harvest Bread Co. and bought a loaf of their high fiber bread, and a loaf of roasted garlic cheddar bread. They gave me a sample slice of the garlic one, and instead of eating half the loaf at home, I was satisfied with just the one slice.

**After Great Harvest, I went to the liquor store and bought a box o' wine. My husband isn't much of a drinker, so box wine is great for me because I don't feel like I have to drink the whole bottle or end up wasting it. Last night, I didn't have any of it since I'd had enough to eat. It was the first time since I got hardcore on weightloss that I'd bought any alcohol. I did have a beer last week, and boy did I feel it!

So today is a new day, and I'm back on track. Writing out the things I did RIGHT yesterday really helped me put it in perspective, and made me refocus. I'm a "glass is half-full" kinda girl, so instead of letting my bad choices beat me down, I'm going to focus on the positive.

I turned my defeatist attitude around this morning, and got in a great early morning run. I happened to wake up at 5:30 this morning, so rather than go back to sleep, I made myself get up and go for a run. My penance for not running yesterday was to add 2 miles to my scheduled 3 today, so I ran 5 miles instead. In 1:01:46. My best outdoor time yet!! It was exactly what I needed to start today off right, and get my head back in the game. Let's do this, bitches!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012


Yesterday was the first day of preschool for my twins, so I took advantage of the 3-hour break and had a friend come over to turn me RED. We went to Sally's and bought supplies, then came to my house and played hair salon. :) I love it! It's more of a purpley-red than I planned, but I still love the color. I feel so sassy now!

On the workout front, I'm getting lazy and need a kick in the ass. I took my first rest day in two weeks yesterday, and really didn't want to do anything today. Instead of slipping back into old habits, I hauled my ass to the basement and did Level 3 for the first time. Holy. Shit. Jillian has gone completely insane! What was up with all the jumpy exercises?? That was my favorite thing about Ripped, that it was easy on the jumping, but she crammed every jumpy move out there into Level 3. I died.

I really need to run today, but I don't wanna. Someone talk me into it! I'm supposed to run 4 miles, but Abby has gymnastics from 5:30-6:30, and I need to buy panties for Emma and tomorrow is school Picture Day so everyone needs to be extra clean tonight. Oh, and I need to figure out dinner. I'm tired just thinking about it all!

So panties. I don't know if I've mentioned it here, but Emma's autistic. Over the summer, she learned to make herself pee and she needs to be changed constantly when we go out to new places. Public restrooms have become her place to decompress from too much stimulus. It's a pain in my ass, though, when I'm having to change her diaper 2-3 times at every stop. I warned her teacher right before school started that this was happening, and sure enough, she's been doing it there too. She's in the same class with the same teachers and a lot of the same kids as last year, but they're doing more "discoveries" in the 4-year class. In the 3-year class, all they did was PE. This year, they go to PE, library, technology (computers), music, and art. They visit the different classrooms for each discovery, and Emma's not liking the change. The school's autism specialist called me today to tell me she ran out of the library and went straight back to the classroom into the bathroom, and climbed on the changing table today because she was DONE! She wanted to know if we're seeing this at home and what we've been doing, and she suggested we let her change herself in these situations. We need to get her to be more independent, and hopefully that'll lead to potty-training. She's so close! She'll do everything but actually pee/poop in the toilet.

When I picked them up from school, I spoke to their main teacher about the phone call and she said another thing they've been throwing around is panties. We haven't tried panties at home yet because she runs around in just a Pull-Up, or totally naked, at home and hasn't had an accident in many months. I've dreaded putting panties on her because I know she'll then think they're like Pull-Ups and it's ok to pee in them. We'll have so many accidents! I guess it's time, though, so we're going to make a big deal about the panties and let her pick them out tonight. I'll be sure to pack several outfit changes for her tomorrow for school too.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

I did it!

Sort of. I'd planned on running 12 miles this morning, but only made it 11.25. I am completely happy with that, though! I ran it in almost the same amount of time it took me to run 10.13 last week. Woohoo!

On the way out the door

Today, I put all the parts of the trail I've run before together into one long run from Point A to Point B, and had Damon pick me up. It was the first time he's ever picked me up from a run before, and he was really impressed when we went back for his car just how far I'd gone. We took the freeway back to his car, and it was 3 exits up. That made me feel pretty badass!

My Route

When I mapped my run online to see where I would start and end, I discovered a fork in the main trail that went under the freeway and would dump me at a parking lot for a couple big office buildings just a few minutes from my house. Perfect! Damon wouldn't have to drive very far, and it would be easy to get to for both of us. As long as I could find the fork and there was some sort of access under the freeway to get to the other side, we'd be set. That was my biggest concern, but we did have a Plan B in case it didn't work out. It *looked* like it would go through on the map, but that part of the trail is on the Air Force Academy so I worried there would be some sort of fencing, or just no way across the freeway.

One of the things I love about Runkeeper is their Runkeeper Live feature. I leave my laptop open and on my activities on the runkeeper site before I leave the house, and Damon and the kids can watch me run on the map. It's great peace of mind for all of us, and the kids think it's a ton of fun to be able to "see" Mommy run. :) Had I not found the fork and turned around back to the trailhead closest to our house, they would've seen that and known we were activating Plan B. Instead, they saw me take the fork and cross the freeway, so Damon loaded up the kids and was looking for a good spot to wait for me when I called him and told him I was done. Seeing my van driving up when I was D.O.N.E. was the best thing ever!

So my fears about the fork in the trail were totally unnecessary since it was super easy to find. What I hadn't anticipated were the giant hills! And the super creepy, dark tunnel that ran under the freeway. I'm claustrophobic and a fraidy-cat so there was no way I was going in that scary tunnel if I couldn't see the other side. You bet your ass I made sure there were no ax murderers or bears inside before going in! Once I finally came out the other side and screamed "Hallelujah!", there was a massive hill waiting for me. One of those that are so tall you can't see the top or what's next. At this point, I'd already run 11 miles and I was hot and gross, and just plain done. So after attempting the hill for a hot minute, I declared my run over. Under the 12 miles I'd planned, but still a great run! My math-loving heart is pretty pissed I didn't finish up the 59 seconds so I'd have run an even 2:30, but oh well.

Now it's time to rest for a bit before I shower and go get a haircut. Tomorrow, I'm going red! Come back tomorrow to see the results. This is my inspiration color.

Friday, August 24, 2012

Ripped is Making me Ripped!

Ripped, Level 2, is DONE for the day! I'm starting to notice muscle in places I haven't seen muscle in a very long time. Even better, my husband is starting to notice! I was walking around in my workout shorts yesterday, and he commented on how great my legs are looking. He tends toward chicken legs, so he's a little jealous of my finely-sculpted gams (ha!). ;) He also commented the other day that my back fat is starting to go away. He didn't say that exactly, just something about how my back is looking slimmer. Something much more PC and complimentary, but I knew what he meant. I don't notice my back all that much since, you know, it's behind me and I can't see it easily, but it was great to hear! I guess I'll keep my dates with Jillian since as much as I curse while I'm doing it, I'm actually seeing some results.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

I hate trying to come up with titles, so I'm just gonna skip it this time. I took some Benadryl last night to help with the bug bite, so I woke up this morning totally hungover and had a difficult time getting out of bed. My Facebook peeps talked me into it, and I did manage to get to the gym. Oh yeah, and my kids needed breakfast. Why do they expect to be fed at every meal? Mama wants to sleep! I kid, I kid.

Sparkly Soul Headband

So today was Fartlek day since I was only planning on 3 miles. The past couple weeks, I've been doing this type of running once a week or so, and my time has improved dramatically! Thanks to a friend who runs with me on this run and pushes me to do more. She knows I can, and I'm finally starting to believe her. She wasn't able to join me today, but she was there in spirit. I keep thinking "what would Kim do?" and "Kim would make me push now" and it really helped me get through it. The bonus to speedwork/interval training is that it makes the treadmill kinda fun, and it makes the run go much faster.


See that pace? Holy shit! 10:39!!! I was so excited to see 10-anything! I haven't run like that since I first started running about 7 years ago. I was 7 years younger then, so I was naturally faster than now. I've had to seriously work these past 8 months to FINALLY see 10's! I ran my slow portions at 5.3-5.4, and the speed parts in the 7's. I even managed to maintain crazy speeds like 7.3 for a minute or so. A couple months ago, I would've died running any of it 5.4 and now that's my "easy" pace!

AND to top it all off, I came home and went straight to my date with Jillian. Level 2 is finally starting to feel good and not like I'm going to die. I even managed to do a few of the exercises with my 8lb weights. I was able to do all of Level 1 with 8's toward the end. I was still flying from my run so I pushed harder than I have all week, and it felt GOOOOOD! Bring it, Jillian.

On a board I'm on, someone mentioned they weigh 7lbs less than their driver's license, so it got me thinking about my own. I know I was heavier then, but I didn't realize how much heavier until I just looked at the picture. I'm 2lbs less than the weight I lied about back then, and about 15-20lbs less than I actually was. That was 13 months ago. I took the one on the right last night right before I left for the kids' Back to School Night. I had to document the fact that I actually did my hair and makeup. :)

Have a great day everyone, and let's get those workouts in for the day! You got this!

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Speed Demon

So despite the butt shot, I made myself go to the gym to get my run in since I only have a month left before the half! I'd mentioned running to the nurse, and she said it would help distribute the medicine and actually help the soreness. I was skeptical, but it worked. I feel fine now.

And I had a kickass run!!


I'm not a fast runner by any means, but I'm totally ok with that. I'm still out there doing, and that makes me proud. I'm typically a 12-13 minute runner, but FINALLY getting all of my training runs in is starting to pay off and my times are getting better. Who knew that actually putting in the mileage and not phoning it in would pay off?! ;)

Bugs Suck

I was all set to run 5 miles at the gym this morning. I was even looking forward to it. Rewind a couple days ago, and a mosquito flew into my van as I was getting in. Bugs love me and I've had a couple bad reactions since we moved to CO 7 years ago, so I was sure I got the thing out of my van before driving away. Nope. A few minutes after I drove away, I noticed myself unconsciously scratching my thigh. Looked down, and sure enough, direct hit by the bloodsucker. Of course, I start freaking out and called Damon telling him I'm going to need another shot, and hope I don't end up with West Nile! I'm a bit dramatic like that. I flew to the grocery store to stock up on Benadryl (sweet, sweet Benadryl how I love the sleep you bring) and cortisone, and bathed in the lotion once I got home.

Original bite. Picture taken when I got home from the grocery store.

By morning, the bite had grown to about twice it's original size, but it was still pretty small so I didn't worry about it. I went about my day wearing jeans, so I didn't see it until I went to bed last night. That's when I noticed it had gotten a lot worse. This is a bad picture I just copied from Voxer, I sent to a couple of my best friends telling them if they didn't hear from me by morning then I'd been struck down by West Nile. See the redness now? The whole area is all hot and hard now (just how I like it).

Aaaaaaand this morning. See how it's all bullseye looking now? That's what really freaked me out and prompted me to call the dr.

I called them on the way to the gym after dropping Abby off at school, fully expecting them to not be able to squeeze me in until later today. Nope, MOSQUITO is a magic word that gets you right in! She asked how soon I could be there, and I told her 10 minutes. They were ready and waiting when I got there. I felt like a VIP (or like I had the plague). They took my vitals and the dr was right behind the nurse. We talked for a minute, and she checked my file to see what type of shot I'd gotten last year since I didn't see *my* dr today, so I got the same steroid again this time.

Hello butt shot! So much for going to the gym right after the dr's. Oh well, at least I looked cute at the dr's office with my Sparkly Soul headband. LOVE. I bought it at the Diva Dash last month, and have worn it on most every run since. It's the ONLY headband I've ever worn that doesn't hurt or go flying off the back of my huge head. And it's cute!

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Ripped, Level 2

I was so proud of myself for getting dressed in my workout clothes first thing this morning, and actually getting my workout in. After dropping Abby off at school, I had *just* enough time to do Level 2 and take a shower before taking Cora to gymnastics. I wanted to be a slacker and just sit in front of the computer until it was time to shower, but I didn't. Go me!

Unfortunately, I didn't plan the rest of my day as well. Sure, I had enough time to workout and shower, but I forgot to eat. I wasn't all that hungry, so I didn't really think about it. Once we got to gymnastics, though, I was starving! I need to remember to throw a couple Luna bars in my bag for times like this. Oh, and I barely made it to gymnastics on my almost-empty gas tank. I was praying the whole time that I wouldn't run out of gas, and I'd still have enough to get me to a gas station afterward. I was down to 11 miles on my tank when we got to gymnastics, but I didn't have enough time to stop. Thankfully I made it to a gas station after!

Anyway, I was talking about food before I remembered my empty van. Back to food. Seriously, if you're going to read my blog, I should warn you that my thoughts are all over the place and that's pretty much how I write. And tell stories in real life. I'll get to my point eventually. I suppose I could edit my posts, but what's the fun in that?

Oh yeah, food.

So I'm starving when we get to gymnastics, and I had to go to Target afterward to pick up my meds (I have hypothyroidism and high blood pressure, and take meds for both). I could've stopped at home to grab something healthy on the way to Target since my house is sort of between the two, but I only now thought of that. Oops. Instead, we hit the Taco Bell drive-thru across the street from the gas station I barely made it to. What? It was RIGHT THERE. I was sorta good, at least. I only ordered a Doritos taco (holy hell, those are crack!), a small bean burrito, and a SMALL Pepsi. I ate the taco, about 2/3 of the burrito, and just a few drinks of the Pepsi. For me, that's huge! In the past, I would've ordered a double-decker taco, a steak chalupa, a 7 layer-burrito, and extra large Pepsi. That was my standard order for the longest time. Yum! Cora noticed the change too. She asked me why I was drinking a "baby cup" instead of my gigantic one. Today's meal was still plenty tasty and filling enough to leave me satisfied. Instead of beating myself up for the Taco Bell stop, I'm going to be proud of myself for making slightly better choices and not going crazy. Baby steps.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Moving On Up

I've decided I graduated from Ripped, Level 1 yesterday. It's still hard, but I'm able to do most of it with 8lb weights now. And to tell you the truth, it's starting to get boring. I did it 5 days last week, and ran 3 days. With today's run, I've now worked out 9 of the last 9 days!
I weighed and measured today, and I'm down 4.3lbs this week! I need to go upstairs to get my notebook to log my inches, but I know I'm down 3.75" total, and 1.5" just in my waist! Jillian is so tough, but man! she gets results.


So today, I ran 4 miles on the treadmill. I ran most of it at 5.2, and sped it up the last mile or so! It's my fastest average pace in a long time. I just need to stick with it, and run the 4 days/week that are on my training plan so I can hopefully run my half in a decent time. I signed up for the 2:30 wave since that's what all my friends are running, but I'm just hoping to be under 3:00. I'd really love to be under 2:45. We'll see. 12 miles scheduled for Saturday. I'm really nervous after this past weekend's long run! I can't let it derail me, though. Just over a month left til the half, so I have to push through for a little longer.

Brittany asked in my last post what training plan I'm doing. Since I'm not savvy enough to figure out how to add a link in the comments, I'm just adding it here. Also, I thought others might be looking for a half training plan, and I've really liked this one. I started my training right after the Bolder Boulder on Memorial Day, so I had 17 weeks. Since the plan is only 12 weeks, I repeated some weeks in order to fit the time I had. I also added a 13.1 run right before I start tapering because I'm scared and need to run it before the actual race. That way, I'll *know* I can get through it. I just made myself a spreadsheet in excel with my 17 weeks based on the plan I found on pinterest that seemed closest to my ability. I haven't stuck with it to the letter because I'm a big slacker, but I HAVE to from here on out. I don't have time to slack now!

Ok, it's time for my date with Jillian and Level 2. Hold me.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Progress Picture

Since I've been up & down with the same 20 or so pounds the past couple years, I don't see any difference between then and now. I found some pictures I took after a workout on my phone from last year when I was about 190, so I thought I'd compare with this morning. I love seeing the side shots! I'm especially thrilled with my arms.
In other news, I ran my first double-digit run ever this morning! I'd planned on running 11 miles, but I ran out of water toward the end and I ended up getting sick and woozy. I hit the wall HARD around 8.5 miles, and it was all I could do to get to 10. I walked a lot of that 1.5 miles. I definitely learned my lesson, and just ordered a pair of add-on bottles for my iFitness belt. I walked 1.25 miles back to the car, and felt horrible. I was so worried I was going to puke or pass out on the way to the car! Thankfully, Damon happened to have $2 in his console, so I was able to grab a Powerade from the gas station on the way home from the trail.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Man, I Suck

I'm a horrible blogger! The good news is I've lost 15lbs since my last post, and have been maintaining (stuck) around this current weight for a few months. I got down to about 172-ish last year, and put most of it back on. Started this year at 186.4, and I'm back down to 173. It's my own fault because I've been eating horribly all summer. Abby's back in school this week, and my twins start preschool on the 27th, so I've been getting back on track. I REALLY want to break this 173-176 cycle I've been on, and FINALLY see 160's. When I did WW a few years ago, I saw 168, but it didn't last long. That's when I got complacent, and stopped going to meetings. I have been running, and working out some, and that's why I haven't gained it all back already. I'll be doing the Rock & Roll Half in Denver next month, the weekend after my birthday, so I've had to stick with running for quite awhile now. Go me! I still haven't been running as often as I really need to, but I am up to 9.6 miles! I'm running 11 this weekend, and I can't wait to hit double digits. I'm planning on taking pictures this weekend to see if I can see any changes from previous years. I can't see any difference between the start of this year and the 12-ish pounds I've lost since. My clothes fit better, though, and I've been wearing all the size 12 jeans that sat in my closet for a couple years! They're a bit big even, but the 10's are still too tight. Soon!!