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Thursday, October 25, 2012

Turns out, I Like Clothes. Who Knew?!

I've never been much into fashion. I have no idea what the "it" labels are, or even where to find the fancy clothes. I'm guessing they're not at Target or Old Navy, which is where the majority of my wardrobe comes from.

Since gaining weight these past years, fashion has taken a serious backseat and I was all about whatever made me look less fat. My wardrobe consisted of black, and black. And jeans. Fall has always been a favorite of mine, though, because that means I could go back to hiding behind baggy sweaters, and my jeans were totally seasonally appropriate.

Now that I've lost about 20lbs this year (and 25 from my heaviest), and have been at least holding steady in the 160's even if I'm not losing right now, my self-confidence has received a major bump and I'm finding I love to dress cute. It's FUN to put an outfit together, and rock it! I honestly didn't think I'd enjoy clothes until I got to goal, or at least much closer, but I have been so wrong.

Another thing that's really surprised me already is how much I love to take pictures of myself in my cute clothes. My friend, Amanda (hi bitch!), and I have always fought over the best spot to hide ourselves in the back of the picture when taking group shots. She and I have been the "fat" friends for so long, but that's certainly changing for both of us! She's been losing weight as well, and I'm so proud of her accomplishments!

There are very few pictures of me from my bigger girl days because I avoided the camera whenever possible. Now? I find myself taking pictures of myself frequently to show off my pretty clothes because I feel damn good! I'm still a long way away from my goal weight, but damn if I'm not celebrating my losses along the way.

Everyone say hi to Amanda!

Clearly, I love Target. And boots.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Liebster Blog Award

How fun! I've been nominated for the Liebster Blog Award. Thank you Estefanie, Christina, and Michelle, Sonya, and Amanda! I'm so blown away that all of you even read my little blog, let alone would want to know more about me.

Brace yourselves, this is gonna be a long one.

The Rules:
- Each person tagged must post 11 things about themselves.
- They must also answer the 11 questions the tagger has set for them.
- They must create 11 more questions to ask bloggers they have decided to tag.
- They must then choose 11 bloggers to tag with less than 200 followers.
- These lucky bloggers must be told.
- There are NO TAG BACKS.

11 Things About Myself
1. I ran my first half last month.
2. I've been a lazy runner for 7 years, but have never been consistent until now. Though, I've been awful about running since the half.
3. My husband is 8 years older than me.
4. One of my twins, Emma, is autistic.
5. When I was in 5th grade, I tried out for choir and was told I'd likely need surgery as an adult because my voice is so loud and I'm probably damaging my vocal chords. Or something like that.
6. My kids cover their ears and scream NO! when I sing.
7. My mom is from Guatemala. She immigrated here 3 years before I was born. On her own. When she was 22. Her strength and courage amazes me.
8. I was a kick-ass cheerleader in high school. My loud voice paid off then. The booster club loved me because I always made them more money than any of the other girls for their raffles during the games.
9. I LOVE Fall. The crispness in the air, the clothes, the colors, the holidays. Plus, it helps that my birthday (9/18) is on the cusp of it, so it's already starting to feel like fall by then.
10. My birthday is my favorite holiday! ;) I don't care that I'm now 34, I still make a big deal about my birthday.
11. I love math.

Questions from Estefanie
1. What do you want to accomplish before the end of the year?
I'd like to be down another 10lbs by then. I haven't seen 150's in YEARS!
2. What are you looking forward to about next year?
Being healthy and getting to goal. Watching my kids grow and blossom.
3. Who is your fave person and why? (could be someone famous, hero, parent, etc)
My Gumma was my favorite person. She was my dad's mom. She taught me so much, and was amazing. God, I miss her.
4. What is your secret addiction?
Secret? Hmm. Probably my iphone. My husband and I have always joked about "Julio," my secret lover, so he now calls my phone Julio since it gets more action than my husband. ;)
5. Who have you held a grudge on and why (I'm nosey.)?
I don't hold grudges. Life's too short to let shit like that fester.
6. Where would you go if you had an all paid vacation?
Europe. I've always wanted to go to Europe, anywhere in Europe, and I'm jealous of those kids who get to backpack across.
7. When did you first realize you were an "adult"?
For me, the kids made me feel like an adult. Before that, I still felt young and free. Kids settled me, and required the purchase of a minivan. It's tough to not feel like an adult when you drive a mom wagon.
8. Why do you blog?
I started this blog to keep me accountable when trying to lose weight. I needed a place to write down my thoughts, and be able to look back and see my progress. Plus, I'd hoped that putting it out there on the internet would kick my ass more than keeping a paper journal.
9. How do you sleep?
When I'm running consistently, I sleep like the dead and can't stay up past 9. Most days, though, I'm a night owl and pay for it in the mornings. If we're talking position, I sleep on my stomach.
10. Do you like weird smells? (rubber, nail polish, gas, etc)
Sometimes. I love the smell of Play-Doh, white out, and hair spray.
11. If you could change anything in your life, what would it be and why?
I'd be in shape and at my goal weight without having to bust ass for it. I'd also like to quit being a procrastinator and lazy. I could get so much done if I wasn't!

Questions from Christina
1. Where were you born?
Torrance, California.
2. What do you love most about yourself?
My eyes
3. Who is your favorite music artist?
Mumford & Sons. All-time favorite is Dave Matthews Band.
4. Do you have a talent that you love but aren’t good at?
I'd love to be a better photographer. I do some pro stuff, but a big reason I don't do more is because I don't think I'm good enough and I'm wasting everyone's time.
5. What’s your favorite movie?
This is HARD! I love movies. Favorite tear-jerkers: PS I Love You, Steel Magnolias, and Beaches. Favorite comedies: anything with Steve Martin, Tom Hanks, and/or Bill Murray. And all the Vacation movies. Favorite kid movies: The Princess Bride and The Goonies. I could go on...
6. Are you superstitious?
Meh, not really.
7. Do you have a weird phobia?
It's not really weird, but I'm claustrophobic. Damon and I watched Captain America the other night, and the scene where he transforms from scrawny to huge FREAKED me out because he was encapsulated in that thing.
8. How would your BFF describe your personality?
9. What’s your signature dish?
I love to cook, so I don't know if I have a signature dish. I tend to bring something new from Pinterest to potlucks. A couple crowd favorites are crack dip, bacon-wrapped chicken and potatoes, and shredded beef tacos.
10. What’s your most embarrassing moment as a teenager and adult?
I peed my pants in 7th grade. We were in the middle of a test and I was too embarrassed to ask to go to the bathroom since it was a big no-no. I tried to hold it, but I couldn't and peed at my desk. Worse was my crush sat right next to me!
11. Who is your celebrity crush both male and female
Oh hell. I don't have a List, I have an entire book! I have lots of crushes. The two who never leave the very top of my list, though, are Andy Pettitte and Jeffrey Dean Morgan. My biggest girl crush is Lauren Graham.

Questions from Michelle
1. Who means the most to you?
My husband and kids.
2. What is your number 1 goal right now?
To lose 30lbs, and to finish my accounting degree.
3. What is your occupation?
I'm a stay-at-home mom.
4. Hobbies?
Photography, reading, knitting
5. Pets?
Nope. I'm allergic to cats AND dogs, much to my kids' disappointment. We had a beta fish a couple years ago, but he died last year.
6. What is a current struggle?
7. What do you love about yourself?
My hair.
8. What is something you want to work on about yourself?
I would love to not be so damn lazy and half-ass everything!
9. Who is someone you miss? why?
My Gumma. She died of breast cancer about 6.5 years ago. She taught me the basics of grown-up living. How to cook and clean and stuff.
10. What is something you cant live without?
My iphone.
11. What are your talents?
I'm a beast with names and faces. It freaks Damon out when we watch tv or movies that I can tell him where I saw That Guy before. Who needs IMDB when you have me!

Questions from Sonya
1.What's your middle name?
Lynn Marie, but I mostly just use Lynn.
2.Last book you read?
I'm currently reading The Next Thing on my List by Jill Smolinski
3.Favorite "healthy" food.
4.Favorite "non-healthy" food.
A big, greasy burger and fries with a Roy Rogers (cherry Coke) to drink. Or Mexican food. Or sushi. God, I love non-healthy food.
5.Favorite drink, other then water.
Non-alcoholic: Roy Rogers, and I have egg nog on the brain now. Oh! Egg nog shake from McDonald's, and the peppermint chocolate chip shake from Chick Fil A.
Alcoholic: beer, red wine, and margaritas.

6.Where were you born?
Torrance, California.
7.Favorite form of exercises?
8.Favorite sport to watch?
9.Favorite quote.
No idea.
10.How would your friends & family describe you?
11.Favorite tv show.
The Big Bang Theory.

Questions from Amanda
1. Do you believe in a higher power?
Yep. I'm not very religious, but I still believe.
2. What is your favorite pick-me-up song when you are sad?
Lie in our Graves by Dave Matthews Band.
3. Favorite form of exercise?
4. Dream vacation destination?
5. What age did you have your first kiss?
12. Such a sweet memory.
6. If you won the lottery tomorrow, what would you buy first?
After doing all the responsible stuff like paying off our house and cars, and creating big nest eggs for the kids, I would go on a geekgasm shopping spree. I'd buy ipads, an iMac, and a Macbook Pro for my house. Then I'd go buy expensive clothes from brands I'm only vaguely aware of, but mostly I'd buy boots. Lots and lots of boots.
7. What is your favorite animal?
When I was a kid, I desperately wanted a pet Panda or a koala.
8. What is your favorite book?
Oh man, I love books. My all-time favorites are the classics. Little Women, Great Expectations, Jane Eyre, Wuthering Heights. These days, I don't have much time to read, so I stick to fluff. I love anything Nora Roberts.
9. Favorite subject in high school?
Algebra. I love math, but Algebra is my favorite.
10. If money were no object, what career would you choose?
Trophy Wife.
11. Favorite holiday?
My birthday. :) Favorite real holiday is Thanksgiving. Who doesn't love a holiday full of food!

Did you make it all the way through? Good, consider yourself tagged. :) Pick 11 questions from those above, and let's see your answers! If you play along, be sure to post in the comments with your link so we can all read your answers.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Shrinking Pants

So I have a confession to make. I'm one of those annoying bitches who lose the baby weight (and then some) super fast. With Abby, I gained 30lbs & lost 45 within the first couple months. With my twins, I only gained 23lbs (I threw up the entire time & started my pregnancy quite overweight so drs weren't worried) and I lost 40 right away. I always joke that giving birth is my best diet ever!

Abby a couple months old. I was in the 140's!

My issue isn't losing the baby weight, it's keeping it off. Once we get a great routine going with babies and my body goes back to normal, that shit comes right back on and I go back to a "comfortable" weight for my body.

And then time passes, shit happens, and I'm up to my heaviest ever before I know it. I've had to bust ass to get back down to the high end of my old comfortable weight this time.

Anyway, this is a very long, roundabout way of telling you I now fit into back of the closet jeans!! I lived in these size 11 jeans once I was back to being comfortable in regular clothes after having my twins. They even got too big at my lowest post-pregnancy weight & I bought the same pair in a 9. Those 9's only fit for a hot minute, though, before I was back in the 11's.

When my twins were 8 months old, I was diagnosed with a rare form of skin cancer in my breast. The stress of that time made me balloon up to weights I'd only ever seen at the end of my pregnancies, and these jeans gathered dust in the back of my closet.

These are the jeans I'd bust out every so often when I'd lose a few pounds to see if they fit yet. They NEVER did. Most days, they laughed at me when I couldn't get them over my hips. A couple times I got them on, but there was no way in hell they were going to button. Don't even think about sitting down because my legs looked like they were in a sausage casing.

This morning, I got out of bed late to go to parent-teacher conferences, so it was a hooker bath day. You know, take baby wipes and clean up important bits and spray yourself down with some perfume. As I'm cleaning up, I realize all my current jeans are dirty so I reach into my closet to see what I have.

First pair I grabbed was my only remaining pair of 14's. I figured I haven't really dropped too much in sizes, so they should be ok. They were huge! They slid right off, buttoned and all.

My ass is in there somewhere

My next pair were my post-pregnancy jeans. I was really nervous to even try them because I fully expected them to be too tight and that would be disappointing. I did it anyway and they fit! Well! There was minimal muffintop, and they've even gotten a little loose as the day has gone on. Looks like these jeans are back in my rotation!


Those 9's WILL be coming out of the waaaay back of the closet soon!

P.S. Yes, I'm still wearing them from this morning. No, I haven't showered yet. Time to impress Abby's teacher now with all this! ;)

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Withings Scale Review

If you spend any amount of time with me, you'll know that I love my gadgets. Particularly gadgets that connect with my iphone and show me pretty charts and graphs on fancy apps. For me to lose weight, I NEED to see the numbers, and charts and graphs just make my heart sing.

And when my apps work TOGETHER and sync with one another? Holy geekgasm!

MyFitnessPal just announced their "app gallery" today. While my fitbit has been playing nicely with mfp for quite some time now, I was so excited to see my Withings scale on the list!


I already loved my scale because it syncs with runkeeper and my fitbit as well as a bunch of other apps, but now it's a full meta geek circle of love with mfp as well!

Some key features of the Withings scale:

1. It connects via wifi to the Withings site and app.
2. It syncs with a ton of apps, so you don't have to manually enter your weight there again.
3. You can have up to 8 users, and it automatically keeps track of the different users.
4. You can share your data with any professionals who need to track your weight. Doctors, coaches, nutritionists, etc. You can also email anyone individual weights for certain days.
5. If you're really brave, you can share your stats on Facebook or twitter as well.
6. Your online "dashboard" is password-protected so nobody can see it if you don't want to share it. You can even have different passwords for each user if you don't want your spouse/boyfriend/parents to see your weight.

I'm sure you have seen my app screenshots of my weight all over my blog. That's the original Withings app that coincides with my scale. I love this because it keeps me honest in weightloss challenges, and with all of you. See the date & time on there? It definitely shows I'm not fibbing my weights.

My fancy graph

Speaking of my weight screenshot, that weight up there? That's today's weight! I FINALLY got below 168! I've been fluctuating between 168-169 ever since I hit the 160's weeks ago, but it's been completely my fault so I can't complain. I'm so happy to see 167.anything today!

If you'd like to buy a Withings scale for yourself, they're currently offering 15% off right now with the code myfitnesspal to celebrate the new union between the two. The deal is only good until 10/31, so hurry up and be awesome like me! :D

Sidenote: I was not sponsored or compensated in any way to write this post. I just love my toys, and am always trying to get everyone to buy some too. ;) I bought my scale on my own, and the Withings people don't have a clue who I am or that I'm writing this post.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

The Game Plan

It's the start of a new week, so I've decided to set up a few goals to keep me on track. If I don't write them down, I don't stick to them. Plus, you can help me stay accountable this way. :D

1. WATER! I've been slacking on this since I haven't been running. I'm still drinking water, but not nearly as much as I should.
2. TRACK FOOD! Again, I've been lazy about tracking every bite into MyFitnessPal. It's way too easy for me to cheat if I don't enter every bite, and I'm a numbers girl so need to the fancy breakdowns.
3. RUN! I'm going to try and start to get consistent with running again. I'm feeling great, so hopefully my hip issues are behind me. I'll still take it easy this week, particularly if my hip gives me ANY trouble, but I'm ready to get back to it!
4. GYM! I will take at least the two Ultimate Conditioning classes at the Y, on Tuesday and Thursday. I'm still feeling a little sore from Thursday's class, so I definitely need to get back to strength training since I haven't done anything in weeks.

That's it. Sticking to these few goals will definitely keep me on track this week. All 3 kids are sick today, so tomorrow will be tough since they'll likely be home from school. We'll see how they're feeling in the morning. I'd better not get sick too! Did I mention they've been home for FOUR days already? There was no school on Thursday or Friday last week. AND they don't have school Thursday or Friday this week either. Sigh.

I started setting myself up for success yesterday, though. I blended up 3 bags of spinach and froze it in silicone mini muffin pans for smoothies. I also peeled and cut a couple leftover bananas that nobody was going to eat because they were too ripe, and cooked chicken breasts and brown rice for meals. It helps me so much at lunch time to have cooked chicken and rice ready to go. All I have to do is warm it up, and throw a few veggies in or make a quick salad. Quick and easy!

This morning, I had my first green protein smoothie in quite awhile, and boy did my body rebel! "WTF are you doing putting this healthy shit in me?" it said, and I spent a good part of the morning in the bathroom "cleaning out my system." I better see a loss this week after that!

My smoothie was delicious, though! Here's what I threw in it:

frozen spinach cubes
nonfat vanilla Greek Yogurt
1 scoop chocolate protein powder
mint extract
1 tblsp Ovaltine (to sweeten it and make it more chocolatey)
a wee bit of mini chocolate chips

The mint extract had a little spout instead of being a dropper thingy, so I accidentally put way more than the couple drops I'd planned, but it was still delicious.

What are your goals for this week, and what are some obstacles you'll face? Let's keep each other focused and on track!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Ultimate Conditioning

My husband and I joined the Y back in January since a few of my friends are members, and I'm more likely to go with people. I immediately started taking a class on Tuesday mornings, called Ultimate Conditioning. There's a Thursday class too, but my friends warned that Thursday instructor was insane so I stayed far away. Tuesday was hard, but not crazy. I felt like I got a good workout, but wasn't dying.

Well, now that I've done a month of Ripped in 30 and trained for a half, I felt ready to take on Thursday. A friend and I went together, and holy shit! This class made Ripped look like a walk on the beach. It was kinda like the Jillian videos with 3 minutes of strength and 3 minutes of cardio, over & over for almost an hour. In each strength segment we worked a different body part. My legs were SHAKING in the very first segment!

Today, I am so completely sore everywhere. I'm moving like an old lady, and it takes me 10 minutes to sit down. Oh the pain! If it'll get me looking like a lot of the women in the class, though? It will be so worth it! I will definitely do that class again, and would love to get to where I don't have to modify everything.

The best news was my hip didn't give any trouble at all in the class! Yay!

What are some of your favorite classes at your gym?

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Weigh-in Wednesday

So this is my first attempt to write a post using the blogger app on my iPhone. Pretty easy so far! If this works, I'll blog more regularly.

My weight hasn't changed since I hit the 160's. I've been fluctuating between 168-169 for what? a month? At least a couple-three weeks. I'm ok with it because I've been a bad girl, but I want to see that number go down now!

I ran again yesterday, and my hip gave me some trouble, but I listened to my body and stopped when I had to. I was on the treadmill & didn't pay attention to the mileage and stuff when I finished, so I have no idea how far I went. I know I ran the first 1.5 miles before I had to walk, and I didn't run too much after that. I was on the treadmill for 35 minutes total. I'm not ready to get back into a running routine, but damn it felt good to run again! I've missed it so much!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Suck it up, Buttercup

So I did run this weekend, but it wasn't the 10k I was hoping for. I woke up on Sunday a little late, so I thought I'd do a 5k instead. It sucked! My left foot had been hurting since the race and was still hurting then, but I wanted to run, dammit! It killed me. I definitely made whatever's going on there worse. :( I also had really sore hips after the race, which isn't normal for me, but it went away after a couple days so I didn't think too much of it. Not even a mile in, and my right hip started hurting. It was more sore than pain, so I pushed through, but I barely made it 2 miles and had to walk the last 1/3 mile or so home. It was so disappointing! Once I got home, both my hip and foot hurt so badly that I spent most of the day in bed.

I spent the last couple days in full-on pity party mode. I took my laptop to a friend's house last week, and hadn't plugged my fitbit charger syncer thing back in. What was the point? I'm just sitting on my ass, not running. i4l,
kI will NOT let this get me down! I will NOT gain the weight back that I worked so hard to lose.

That's the big fear.

Already, I've been slacking with the eating, and have gone back to my old ways. I've been eating like my former fat girl again, and it has to stop. TODAY. I'm back on the wagon today, and ready to kick some ass! I weighed, and took pictures and measurements, and I've eaten well this morning. I also dusted off the Gazelle (yes, the thing from the infomercials!), and hopped on for 30 minutes. It felt so GREAT to do something! It wasn't as satisfying as a good run, but it'll do for now.

I was really surprised (and thrilled!) to see I haven't gained any weight since the half. I've been fluctuating between 168-169ish, but that's ok. I'm not going to see the 170's again!
Withings scale

Today's new "before" picture. Thankfully, I didn't gain any inches back either! I was really worried about that. The scale hasn't moved up, but surely I've gained some inches since Jillian and I broke up. She and I need to get reacquainted very soon.