So I never did run yesterday. It was the first time in 3 weeks that I didn't run according to plan. I ended up stuffing my face yesterday too. I don't know what was going on, but I just felt defeated. In a funk. And I let it get the best of me. My head was full of negative self thoughts, and food seemed to be the answer. I didn't have a huge binge day, but I definitely ate stuff I shouldn't have. A big bowl of Frosted Flakes, a handful of Sour Punch Straws, McD's cheeseburger and the rest of the kids' chicken mcnuggets (4 of them)... I ate all day before thinking.
BUT! Looking back at yesterday, I did let some positive thoughts whisper to me even though I didn't hear her much.
**Cora had gymnastics right before school started, so we went to McD's to grab lunch on the way to school. Instead of getting my usual Big Mac combo (super-sized) or 2 cheeseburgers combo, I just got 1 cheeseburger. No fries, no soda. I did eat some of the girls' fries, but not many, and I ended up eating their remaining 4 nuggets, but it could've been much worse.
**After dropping the girls off at preschool, I met a friend for a little shopping at Sephora and then I went with her to Panera Bread. Since I'd already had McDonald's, I stuck to water. I was SO TEMPTED to eat another lunch since my McD's wasn't completely filling, but I knew I'd feel stuffed and sick and gross if I did order something. But mostly, I'd already spent more than I'd planned at Sephora, so I felt guilty buying more food when I'd already gone to McD's.
**When I bought the sour punch straws, I also bought a Snickers bar, but I didn't eat it, and I threw away the rest of the straw package away after I ate 4 or 5 of them.
**I went to Great Harvest Bread Co. and bought a loaf of their high fiber bread, and a loaf of roasted garlic cheddar bread. They gave me a sample slice of the garlic one, and instead of eating half the loaf at home, I was satisfied with just the one slice.
**After Great Harvest, I went to the liquor store and bought a box o' wine. My husband isn't much of a drinker, so box wine is great for me because I don't feel like I have to drink the whole bottle or end up wasting it. Last night, I didn't have any of it since I'd had enough to eat. It was the first time since I got hardcore on weightloss that I'd bought any alcohol. I did have a beer last week, and boy did I feel it!
So today is a new day, and I'm back on track. Writing out the things I did RIGHT yesterday really helped me put it in perspective, and made me refocus. I'm a "glass is half-full" kinda girl, so instead of letting my bad choices beat me down, I'm going to focus on the positive.
I turned my defeatist attitude around this morning, and got in a great early morning run. I happened to wake up at 5:30 this morning, so rather than go back to sleep, I made myself get up and go for a run. My penance for not running yesterday was to add 2 miles to my scheduled 3 today, so I ran 5 miles instead. In 1:01:46. My best outdoor time yet!! It was exactly what I needed to start today off right, and get my head back in the game. Let's do this, bitches!